193.7… stuck

 I seriously haven’t been cheating that bad but I’m stuck on this weight. When I weigh myself without clothes I’m 191.8 but I need the scale to show that when I have clothes on. It’s so frustrating. I have like one cheat BITE of food and the weight sticks to me. 

I’m also dealing with a food aversion with my daughter. So now I have to try and make the dinner table a happy place so that she’ll eat at home again. Fuck me im a fucking failure. 

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