Cheater cheater

 So I bought some mini rice cakes and I’ve been snacking on them all day. Then I had a couple handfuls of honey shreddies. I’m pretty good otherwise, but I need to have more sliced veggies in the fridge to just grab and eat, or maybe I need to not snack so much. When I get down to 187 I’ll have a cheat meal then start counting calories again. Measuring and counting. I bet losing the 10 between 187 and 177 will be very difficult. 

The other thing that worries me is sometimes when people lose a lot of weight they still don’t look that different and still look big, and I’m worried that it’s going to be me. I want to look as good as I send to when I was 166, which I thought was fat but is way better than now. 

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