New High, New Goal

 Well, I weigh 200 pounds, a new high. I was told if I was breastfeeding I could eat whatever I wanted and the weight would melt off. Lies. I gain more now then I did after I had given birth. I think I lost 15 pounds after giving birth then gained it all back. So today was my last cheat day, I’m going back to counting calories and maybe I’ll even try to do an hour of walking a day. 


It’s funny when I read back on my blogs. I was thinking of doing Bernstein again but I’m still pumping once a day so I don’t want to pump my body with chemicals yet. Also don’t really want to spend the money and have to go in for weight checks and doctor visits. Is Bernstein even still around? I don’t see commercials anymore. I wonder if they survived the pandemic.


One of my other blogs was in 2016 and my goal was to pay off my mortgage by 2021. Well, I had a baby last year and took a year off work, so we actually missed that goal - but only by 7 months. God willing we’ll pay off our mortgage by next year! 

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